yesh I made it

ahem

sorry it tooookkk meee soooo loong to blooggg

but my mom was being a bitch (what else is new..) and she wouldn't let me get on the computer all week and im only allowed today to be on until 7:45..
and its 7:35 right now lol

well, my best friend is moving away. shes the only person I feel comfterble around and I can tell anything to. and shes the only person i can talk to about my chemical romance lol i had to write a poem in school about someone i admire, I did her lol

Rachel

Rachel, Rachel, your so tight

we listen to music day and night

we take random pictures for our myspaces

with purposely made disturbing faces

I am so thankful for you.

thats all I can remember right now lmao the first stanza. oh well, I'll remember soon enough.

and this weekend I'm making episode 4 of my youtube series!

xxx

x]

so pretty much I put the first episode of my new sims 2 series on youtube lol
http://www.youtube.com/user/GerardWayIsMyManXD
hellz yeah.
I'm just passing the time while episode 2 uploads. Then Imma make episode 3 :)

I just watched the coolest movie! it was called 'Wristcutters' haha it was awesome x]
the guy who played Zia (forgot his name) reminds me of JT from Hawthorne Heights for some strange reason. I don't know why lol

in the end he went down the black hole in the russian guys car and woke up in the hospital with bandages on his wrists and he looked over and the black haired girl was in the hospital. they smiled really wide at eachother and then the credits started rolling. I don't really get it, but I'm sure I'll get it soon enough.

YESH my stalker hasn't been sitting with me on the bus! holy shit I'm happy!
uh oh what if he read my blog lol that would not be good ._.

I'm so bored. I talked to my friend on the phone on sunday. yup. is it done uploading yet?!

oh wait, as soon as I typed that it was lmao :D

RIP

RIP Casey Calvert :'(
its been a year without him..
he was truely one of the best screamers in the buisness..
Hawthorne Heights just isn't the same..
their new album isn't as awesome as their first two bc of the loss..
but they are still one of the most ahmazing bands in the world :)

Our hearts are heavy and light.
We laugh and scream and sing.
Our hearts are heavy and light.
In loving memory: Casey Calvert

are you kidding me?!?!?!
my stalker just asked me what bus stop I go to!
NOW HE'S GONNA FUCKING GO TO MY BUS STOP EVERY FUCKING MORNING I CAN'T TAKE THIS IM GONNA MURDER HIM
well, no.
lol I just said "I dont know. the one near my house." ugh.
god, I can't live with this guy breathing for me. just like I said, this is DEEP DEEEEEEP hate I have for him!

okay, then he said "I do not know where you live =P" and I said, "Well thats a good thing!" LOL jkjk I didn't say that. but I should have. I said, "wellll why do you wanna know what bus stop I go to anyway?!" and now I'm waiting for his reply. UGHHH *waits*

he said he has no idea. RIGHT.

on a lighter note, I went into myspace music, and clicked emo, and it showed me a whole list of emo bands, and I saw one that said "LOST IN THE SHADOWS" I thought that was pretty tight pahaha so I went on there is this song I love soooo much, its crazy! its called 'Pain I feel for you' omg i love it!

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry call I'm desperate for your voice Listening to the song we used to sing In the car, do you remember Butterfly, Early Summer It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet Like when we would meet Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh Cause every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy? Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight Cause I was born to tell you I love you and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight

its so cute ^_^
and the most horrible thing is..this song is the best song I have ever heard, but no one has any clue who the band is. their in hiding, or something. http://www.myspace.com/depressedandalone1
^^look for yourslef^^
listen to the song, btw.
XXX

uh.

Hey what upp son?

I took a new photographh!

its my new myspace default ferr sureee! XDD

I think I look pretty hot lmao.

don't think I'm conceited; I NEVER say that.

I mean, well..

XDD

ugh Saw 5 isn't playing anymore, I'm so sadd :'(

BUT Imma go see twilight twice on wednesday&&friday x]

*sigh* soo.

I'm pretty freaking bored. OMGZ the stalkers back!

I changed my name from {SamSuffocate} [MCRmy] to SamSuffocate™ [its a deathwish.]

and then he sent me a freaking message saying, "I like the new name." do you think I care what you think of my name?!?! I didn't reply lol.

and it also made me histericly laugh because when my name says "its a deathwish" I'm talking about him BAHAHAHA!!!! Like I said, I find myself wanting him to die :D

WTF

ahh I need to start listening to songs before I put them on my playlist.
I already know of 2 that aren't what they say they are.
Silver Bullet by Hawthorne Heights and Cassie by Flyleaf.

I dunno what songs they really are..hmm.

UHH YESHH!!
Th crazy guy hasn't sent me anything on myspace today ^_^ I'm so happy.
hes a freaking stalker.

Like, he went through allllll of my updates on myspace, looked at the profiles of everyone I'm friends with, and yeah.

My friend made this band account, and she put me as one of the vocalists.
He sent me a message like, "Your the vocalist of a band?" and I said, "wtf? who said that?" but I knew what he was talking about. Then she changed me to tamborine, and he said "What other instruments do you play that I don't know about? =)" like, WTFFFF!!!!! I said all nasty, "I don't play any instruments." pahaha I'm just gonna be nasty to him from now on.
and then he sent me a whole new message saying, "Me neither, I can only play guitar."
1.) wouldn't it be easier to just REPLY to the message we already had going on?
2.) you freaking idiot, that means you DO play an instrument. ugh.

god. I fucking hate him. He needs to go die in the whole he was born in. Like, I've never hated someone soooo much.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE; I wrote a storyyyy. I have the first couple chapters done, I might put them in the story section on quizzilla. hmm
idk. I'm gonna go take a shower, I feel dirtyyy.
I *mighht* see saw 5 today if my mom doesn't wanna act gay about it. okayy see yew! sorry this was kinda short :/

well, well, well!

okay, so remember I told you about that guy that said he likes my pants?
HE'S IN LOVE WITH ME!!!!
WTF?!?! I know, right?

I seriously find myself wanting him to die. Like, either that or Imma kill myself. I can't get rid of him! He MADE me add him AND his sister on myspace, and now everyday he sends me 10 messages! UGHHH

like, he's gonna go play football (I hate fricken football btw) then he'll send me a message about it.

He's gonna go get something to eat. he sends me a message.

His sister got a toilet paper roll at CVS; Sam has to be the first to know!!


GOD please kill him! I can't take it! I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS!!

his sister was talking to me and she was randomly like, "You get with him." and I'm like, "Uhh no thanks." ahhh I felt bad.

but DAMN! leave me alone for 5 minutes! Jesus!

He trys to sit with me EVERY-fricken-DAY on the bus, but sometimes someone else will snag the seat and I'll be silently cheering the whole bus ride because I don't have to hear his voice.

Like, this is deep, deeeeep hate! I don't know what to do! and BTW, I. CAN'T. UNDERSTAND. A. FRICKEN. WORD. HE. SAYS. its just mumbling! UGHHH!!!

I FUCKING HATE HIM!!

pardon my french, but it had to be said.

anyway, GAH life sucks. yeah, I say that every post but its a proven fact.
hmm..OH! more ranting!

I have this "friend" named Ms. X (not really, but we'll call her that) and she drives me crazy.
she is a total girly preppy girl, wears hollister and all that shit, and she thinks shes PUNK.
and also, she says people call her emo.

what has this fucking world come to?
calling little girls who wear abercrombie and fitch and sweat pants emo?
somethings happening.

anyway, yeah. I'm not lying, but the only place I've ever heard her been called emo was third period, science.

I was talking to Chris and Hayley back when I sat in the back in the begining of the year, and Chris said I'm more emo than Ms. X. I said, "wtf? ms. X isn't emo! thats totally retarded!" and he said, "Yes she is."
and a while later, she posts a bulletin on myspace saying that everyone calls her emo and that when she walks down the halls people say, "Oh, look, its Ms. X, she's so emo!" I wish people said that about me. All they call me is goth. But I'll get to that later.

Anyway, yeah. Now, she has all this crap on her myspace like, "o, ima sooo lonly dnt b mean to meh." Yes, thats how she types. I wanna kill someone who types like that.

ugh. OH YEAH, the difference. I'M NOT GOTH YOU FRICKEN RETARDS, I hope you read this fags!

GOTH:
1.
(usually initial capital letter) noting or pertaining to a style of architecture, originating in France in the middle of the 12th century and existing in the western half of Europe through the middle of the 16th century, characterized by the use of the pointed arch and the ribbed vault, by the use of fine woodwork and stonework, by a progressive lightening of structure, and by the use of such features as flying buttresses, ornamental gables, crockets, and foils.
2.
(usually initial capital letter) pertaining to or designating the style of painting, sculpture, etc., produced between the 13th and 15th centuries, esp. in northern Europe, characterized by a tendency toward realism and interest in detail.
3.
(initial capital letter) of or pertaining to Goths or their language.
4.
(usually initial capital letter) of or pertaining to the music, esp. of northern Europe, of the period roughly from 1200 to 1450, including that of the Ars Antiqua, Ars Nova, and the Burgundian school.
5.
(usually initial capital letter) pertaining to the Middle Ages; medieval.
6.
(sometimes initial capital letter) barbarous or crude.
7.
(often initial capital letter) noting or pertaining to a style of literature characterized by a gloomy setting, grotesque, mysterious, or violent events, and an atmosphere of degeneration and decay: 19th-century gothic novels.
8.
(initial capital letter) noting or pertaining to the alphabetical script introduced for the writing of Gothic by Ulfilas and derived by him from Greek uncials with the addition of some Latin and some invented letters.
9.
(often initial capital letter) being of a genre of contemporary fiction typically relating the experiences of an often ingenuous heroine imperiled, as at an old mansion, where she typically becomes involved with a stern or mysterious but attractive man.–noun
10.
(usually initial capital letter) the arts and crafts of the Gothic period.
11.
(initial capital letter) the extinct Germanic language of the Goths, preserved esp. in the 4th-century translation by Ulfilas of the Bible. Abbreviation: Goth, Goth., goth.
12.
(often initial capital letter) a story, play, film, or other work in the gothic style.
13.
(usually initial capital letter) British. black letter.
14.
(often initial capital letter) a square-cut printing type without serifs or hairlines.

GOTH:

ME:

Still think I'm goth, bitches?!?!
Well, two words.

SUCK IT! x]